Unfree :[

I have currently finished reading the latest chapter of Kuroshitsuji and as expected it was totally different from the anime. Grrr!! And as what the site I had been loyally devoting my time in reading manga had announced, the next chapter will be on October 18, 2010. So I marked on every calendar I had including the one on my phone of course with the alarm on. I really am looking forward to the next chapter especially it wasn't on the anime yet. I really wanted to devote all my time to read and watch anime and manga. But it seems that I just can't - of course with all the studies I have right now. I just wish that I could have a job concerning with the things I want 0 manga and anime. I don't even like the course I'm taking up right now. But what else can I possibly do but to follow what my parents desires, I hate taking up nursing and I really hate taking care of those sick people. I wanted to travel, to study about animals and things around the world. I never wanted to stay in a hospital making all those room to room rounds checking people's vital signs - it makes me sick. I may be wicked saying all these things but this is what I feel. And I never wanted to hide my feelings and so as my thoughts anymore. Somehow I wanted to be free.