I'm really confused right now. It's about Kuroshitsuji and its not quite that interesting. I may consider this as part of a little girl's imagination making me act like one. Well I'm already 18 and I may still be acting like a kid but I'm fine with it. I can still act normal like other eighteen year olds do, I can still study or do other things but my attention is really dragged by Anime and Manga. My friends would call me "Otaku Girl" being the only girl in class who is so fond of these things. But Otaku means obsessed in something particularly Anime and Manga. Am I obsessed? Maybe. But I don't care if that's what they think of me - all I care for are my ambitions and interests. My family don't have any problems with those either.
Anyway going back to what I was supposed to tell you - about my confusion. In Kuroshitsuji Season 1, the 12 year old Earl; Ciel Phantomhive was known to be the Queen's Watchdog. Yes, a 12 year old. Strange isn't it? Their family had already been tied with this business for centuries and after he lost his parents on a fire and to be able to get revenge he sold his soul to the demon which will protect him and do things for him until he reaches his goal. Which makes the demon his butler who was later known as Sebastian Michaelis. Sebastian did all things for his young master including buttoning his clothes or tying the laces of his shoes. This was all part of their deal. Now about the confusion part I have told you earlier, I'm kind of confused about the "deal" which Sebastian and Ciel made. It's not about the story but it makes me want to do the same thing Ciel did. I know it's bad to think about things like this and I even posted it online but all I want now is to express my feelings which I can't tell my friends and family. Especially my mother because she had been so faithful to God.
I desperately wanted to reach my goals but it seems that the things that have been occurring to me would really destroy even the thinnest spider thread I have to dream on and fight. Making me think of these kind of things. Making a deal with a demon? *sigh* Oh I don't know. :[
